This moment is always the doorway to freedom.

When beginning to see myself with more clarity & honesty…there was lots of suffering of the feelings that came up seeing the role I had in it all.

All the behaviours and negative patterns that were a destructive force in my life.

I’d push them away trying to escape them, this resistance creates more suffering.

I was still identifying with these things from my mind - my story, my ego, personality - why me, victim mentality - but very attached to the narratives and stories of “me.” 

And it was when these attempts became hopeless, really I didn’t have the energy to keep fighting it, that surrender was possible.

Actually allowing myself to feel what was actually going, the physical expression and energy of it…I notice that some of that on going narrative and mental commentary began to lessen, and there was a newer awareness.

There was a sense of presence with what is. I didn’t like it still, but I began to notice, that I could be with it for a bit longer.

And with less identification with stories, the hold of the past that was plaguing me slowly began to dissolve too.

Joe Dispenza says an ‘Emotion is Energy in Motion’ - E-motion. Makes sense.

So this energy is seeking release, we tend to hold on to them because the story associated with them has some particular meaning for us.

So perhaps our freedom really is found in surrendering into the fullness of each moment.

Allowing things to unfold, feeling what arises, not grasping or pushing away anything…we may notice it’s what’s beneath that is more true - this depth and stillness always available to us - the truth of You.